I’ve been praying for God to break me down and rebuild me into a person He can use. Then I got what I’ve been asking for. A good ol God slap.
This week has been crazy. Actually the past few weeks have been crazy and I just didn’t realise how overwhelmed I was getting. Yall know me, I think I’m superwoman until one day I can’t get out of bed.
After some issues at work I finally had enough and took the day off Monday and went to the Dr. Only to hear what I’ve known and ran from for years.
My fat is affecting my health. Big time.
Like Stage two hypertension, my eyes are going bad, my kidneys aren’t functioning properly, the ever ongoing my ovaries hate me issues, and anemia so bad we are hoping to avoid a blood transfusion.
Now some of you are like stop that, don’t put your self down, God made you blah, blah blah or the other half of you are like yup, we’ve been telling her that for years.
This is serious and I need to take it seriously. I’ve never actually had a medical professional say if you don’t change you will no doubt have a heart attack or stroke by the time your 30. But only I can make these changes. I’ve written so so so so many of these posts through out the years, and even more this year.
Sadly none of this happened over night, which means I can’t undo the damage over night. I currently cant exercise or do anything strenuous until I meet with another Dr. regarding my blood pressure.
I’m well into day 3 of wheat free and I’m tired and hungry and cranky and my stomach is jacked. I guess this means its working 😉
I also think I will be taking some time away from facebook. I really want to write and blog more but facebook seems to take over my free time. Like I sit down to write, then an hour later I finally caught up on everything that has happened that day. Don’t get me wrong I love love love being connected but I can feel my self withdrawing from real people and not having time for real life conversations or phone calls because I’m stuck on facebook. Maybe I’ll take a break, maybe I won’t. I still need to use it for work, church groups and even to post my blogs. Just please dont be offended if I dont see your status or what not, its not personal 😉
I do know I will be blogging more and of course instagram ( a girls gotta have her selfies) maybe one day I’ll have a selfie collage of my shrinking chins 😉
So with that I’ll leave you with pictures.
|I did a random 5k at the beginning of the month.
This will be my before picture, cause it cant get much worse than this!
|I “worked” the Grove kids booth for a festival.
Really I just made fun headbands with pipe cleaners.
Sydney is in the distance. The thought of one day seeing this in person makes things better.